Friday, 8 September 2017

Dreams 868 - 874

Dream 868
'Weird Hair Dilemma'
Date: 24 August 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Weak Recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Time Unknown
I was with my Mum - but I am not sure where we actually were, other than I think it was inside a building. My Mum was running her hand across my head, under my hair. She said that there was short, fuzzy hair (like soft stubble) under my normal, long hair. I think I saw myself in the third-person and specifically, the back of my head. I was worried about the fuzzy hair underneath my own hair, but then I thought that this was better than being bald - this fuzzy hair was new hair growing.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character

Dreamsigns: 
  • The weird fuzzy hair growing over my head
  • I saw myself in third-person perspective

Day Residue: 
  • At the end of the summer I always suffer a lot of hair loss - more than usual, given I normally shed what looks to be an excessive amount of hair each day. I researched on the internet and found that summer hair loss is quite normal and healthy for some people. Even though this happens each year, I always notice and worry about it

Waking Reactions: 
Nothing to add - my reactions upon waking were the same as those within the dream itself and I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Dream 869 (MULTIPLE LUCID FALSE AWAKENINGS)

'My New Housemate'
Date: 27 August 2017
Time: Time Unknown
Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening (Fully Lucid with Minimal/No Dream Control & Weak Dream Stability)
Dream recall: Strong recall 

False Awakening #1 - My Bedroom
I went to bed with my bedroom light off and my door wedged wide open. The light from the hallway was on, partly illuminating my bedroom, and beyond this, the kitchen/lounge light was on. I often sleep this way when I am in my house by myself, as I have been for the entire summer. I have a new housemate, CGD moving in shortly. 

I woke up facing my wall, with the duvet on me. I realised after a moment that this was a lucid false awakening. I had sleep paralysis. It felt like I was mummified by the duvet, like it was weighing me down and wrapping round me, preventing me from moving. This is often the way I interpret the feeling of sleep paralysis (the physical sensation) when it is incorporated into my dream narrative/experience. I also had the common feeling of tension and electrified/vibrating atmosphere which accompanies my lucid false awakenings. I was not sure if I was alone, but I got the impression that if I kept thinking about it, that I might conjure something nightmarish into this dream. 

I started shouting: 'Ewan!' hoping to bring Ewan McGregor into my dream. I usually try to bring him into my lucid dream experiences, because it is enjoyable and also reassuring. However, no matter how much I called out to him, he would not appear. I struggled to fight the sleep paralysis, urging my body to move. It felt like I was breaking myself free from some glue - unsticking myself very gradually, while a force was trying to hold me down. I eventually managed to sit up in bed - I could see that my bedroom door was open, but all the lights were off in the house. My room - what I could see of it, appeared as it should in real life, although I knew the hallway/lounge lights should be on. I could not see what was beyond my bedroom because of this. I was scared. I laid down and tried to fall back asleep by closing my 'dream eyes'. I must have been successful.

False Awakening #2
I woke up in another lucid false awakening with sleep paralysis. I could tell that there was a malign presence in the room with me, and I felt terrified. No matter how many times I have these continuous false awakenings or false awakenings accompanied by sleep paralysis and nightmarish beings, I cannot get used to them and stop myself feeling this scared. I could not break free from the sleep paralysis and I tried to call out to Ewan again, but to no avail, so once more, I closed my 'dream eyes' and tried to fall back asleep.

False Awakening #3
I woke up into a false awakening again, and immediately sprung up into a crouching position on my bed, outside of the duvet. However, I was unable to turn around and see what was behind me. In front of me, was my open bedroom door, and the darkness beyond that. I felt a presence in the room, behind me and was petrified, as I could not turn to see what it was or defend myself. I could, however, move my arms freely. I shook them, to maintain the movement, in case I needed to fight something. Again, I shouted out for Ewan, but there was nothing. Knowing that something behind me (unannounced presence, but anticipating an attack from it), I started shouting: 'I will kill you!' Nothing attacked me. I could not shake off the apprehension and fear, so I decided to close my eyes and visualise a new dream scene, as I am aware that this is a technique which can sometimes work in a lucid dream. I could not change the dream scene - I opened my eyes and saw I was still in my own bedroom. I felt trapped. 

False Awakening #4
I woke up again, in a false awakening. I could not believe it! I decided to get out of bed and see if I could transform this false awakening into a different form of lucid dream by leaving my room. I had some degree of sleep paralysis which made my body feel like it was wading through treacle or sinking sand, but I was able to move slowly. I was also quite tangled in my duvet, which is another was in which I experience the physical phenomena of false awakenings with sleep paralysis. I eventually got out of bed, but it was so difficult to walk, that I only made it a couple of steps towards my chest of drawers. I found I could easily move my body to climb on top of the drawers (which are mid-thigh height, so very low). I crouched on top of them and noticed there was s felt-tip pen drawing there, rather than my PhD research. I looked towards my bedroom door, which was still open. This time I could see light. It was not the hall light, just outside my room, but rather the lounge light, which was a deep red colour in the dream state. I could see a large pile of belongings outside my bedroom, on the hall floor. It looked like a load of old junk and I wondered what it was, and who had put it here. I then wondered (lucidly) if this was supposed to represent the belongings of my new housemate. I could see one of the items was a large cymbal, and could make out some suitcases, but the rest of the items still looked like a load of junk. My vision was somewhat unclear because of the darkness and dim red glow of the light. I started shouting: 'Hello?!' feeling very anxious that I was about to be confronted with something malign/nightmarish, as I could still sense a presence in the house and knowing that my dream control was minimal, was worried I was under threat.

A male figure came into view. He was very misshaped and deformed - with one shoulder hanging much lower than the other and crooked. He was wearing a baggy, ripped red jumper and ripped jeans, which was about all I could make out, mainly because he was standing in shadows and red light. He looked like a zombie/walking dead, as a result of his terrible form and posture. I wondered if he was my new housemate, CGD. He started to walk towards me - in a zombie-like crippled limp, dragging one of his feet behind him. I was anxious as I did not want this confrontation. It seemed to take him ages to reach my room, even though this is only a couple of steps from where he was standing in the hallway. As he approached me, all I could focus on was the red jumper. I thought this might be because I did not know what CGD looked like in real life, so my mind could not imagine his face. He said to me: 'I'm CGD, I moved in early'. I stood up and he hugged me. I stopped worrying that something nightmarish would happen and relaxed.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • The Lucid False Awakening

Day Residue: 
  • I had been talking about my new housemate and how I did not know what he looks like as I could not ascertain his Facebook profile when I was looking to see if I could find him online before meeting him
  • On the day of this dream DL and I had been discussing drums (and cymbals) and also how the vintage 1990s fashion trend does not translate well into the digital age, particularly the 'grunge' look, which was not about being 'fashionable' and had a very different set of aesthetics and ethics than the Instagram generation can ever appreciate when they attempt to recreate the looks and culture of this era. DL and I also very briefly discussed zombies
  • My new housemate has the same last name as an ex-boyfriend, who was a drummer

Waking Reactions: 
I actually anticipated a false awakening before I went to sleep, as I was so exhausted when I went to bed and felt myself falling asleep as soon as I laid down and closed my eyes. I always get this rocking/falling back feeling preceding a false awakening, so when I experienced this before sleep, I think I was actually anticipating this. It was neither a positive nor a negative experience, but it was certainly not enjoyable. I felt so hopeless and helpless while in this multiple false awakenings - it becomes so that I feel trapped by the experience and cannot bring it to an end.

Dream 870
'Grandad Peanut'
Date: 28 August 2017
Time: Time Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: A Domestic Interior - Day
I was in an unfamiliar domestic interior, which in the dream was a family home. My cousin HM was present - looking as she did when she was a young child, although in the dream we were both adult. It was daytime, as I could see this through a window in the room. There was a sofa against the wall and HM and I sat down on it. I then stood up again and stood in the middle of the room, looking towards a doorway, which led to the kitchen. An elderly man crawled through the doorway into the room HM and I were in, which I assume was the lounge. This man had a beard and was abnormally small and seemingly shrouded in an orange glow. I realised that this was my cousin HM's paternal grandfather, who (in real life) was nicknamed 'Peanut' (coincidentally. both HM's grandfathers - the maternal one she shares with me, given our mums are sisters - and her paternal one, who is no relation to me, have the exact same names, with the first and middle name switched - so RDC and DRC respectively). 

I went somewhere by myself - I do not know where. When I returned back to the family home some time later, members of my family were present, eating Christmas dinner. My Mum told me to get my serving, but when I approached the table where all the food was set out for people to help themselves, I realised there was none left for me (only scraps of food and none of the things I would most like to eat), which made me resentful and angry. Everyone was enjoying and my Mum shouted out jokingly 'Didn't anyone leave any for her?!' I felt disconnected and annoyed with my family for forgetting to save me some of the dinner. 

I then saw a male dream character who was a member of campus security (indicated by the hi-vis jacket with my university name/logo) standing at the window, looking in. This male was white, with dark hair and a moustache/beard - he looked to be in his 20s or early 30s. 

I then realised that there was something wrong with my teeth and that I needed an operation to correct it. I was really panicked and anxious and my Mum was nonchalant, telling me not to worry. She didn't seem to care. I looked in the mirror and saw that my 4 lower front teeth were really big and egg-shaped with gaps between them. One was made of pearl, one was made of black and white marble, one was white with brown speckles and one was rust coloured. I wondered how my teeth had transformed in this way, but the more I looked at them, I realised I actually liked how different they were from normal teeth and decided that I should keep them like this.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum as a dream character
  • Something odd about my body, causing me anxiety which I overcome after inspecting it

Dreamsigns: 
  • My cousin was an adult in a child's body
  • I think (I am not 100% sure) that my cousin's grandfather has died. I will check this with members of my family
  • My family had forgotten about me
  • Campus security was at my family home
  • My weird teeth

Day Residue: 
  • I had a long discussion with the cleaner at university, DW, with whom I get on very well. We had discussed food and family, and I had shown her a photo of me as a child, which also had HM on it. We also talked about nut allergies
  • I had been discussing grandfathers with DL the day of this dream
  • I have anxiety about my teeth and had been thinking about them. Just before this dream I had read an online story about someone having dental surgery and had also watched a Grav3yardgirl video in which Bunny described how she is content and comfortable with her imperfect 'pony teeth' (her description)

Waking Reactions: 
I woke up from this dream in a very negative and depressed mood, which I attributed to the dream in my waking thoughts.

Dream 871
'Ewan's Babymama'
Date: 29 August 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Normal Dream
Dream recall: Weak/Normal Recall 

Scene 1: An Unknown Interior - Day
The dream started off in an interior - a house I think, although I am not sure. CEC and NN (both of whom I have been friends with since school) were present in the dream, although I am unable to say how they played a part in the dream narrative. There was also something relating to a piano, which I cannot recall clearly.

Scene 2: A Bus Stop. Cromer - Day
I was at a bus stop in Cromer, which was not the main bus stop (which featured in a recent dream - 'Dream 865 - 'Jimmy Savile Victim' inspired by a recent rape incident which took place in this location in real life). It was day time, but not sunny. I was sitting on the bench of the bus stop and I was aware that I was pregnant. I was joined by Ewan McGregor, who was the father of my unborn baby. I was not happy and I felt really oppressed and trapped by my relationship with Ewan, who was a moody and nagging person who constantly suffocated me with attention and lack of independence. I just wished I was on my own and not about to become a mother. Ewan just loitered over me, really close, so I did not have personal space. He was saying something (unrecalled) which I felt was negative and annoying. He was wearing a navy jumper and had his hair parted at the side, but other than that, looked exactly how he does in real life, in the present time. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • A bus stop in Cromer as a dream scene location
  • Ewan McGregor as a dream character
  • Not enjoying Ewan's company due to his bad personality

Dreamsigns: 
  • I was pregnant and Ewan McGregor was the father

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This was really odd - I love Ewan so much that I cannot imagine being unhappy to be in a relationship with him. Although I do not want children, I would imagine that if I did, Ewan would be the man I would want to procreate with, given how obsessed I am with him! I am not sure what my subconscious was trying to tell me in this dream!


Dream 872
'Female Darth Vader Impersonator'
Date: 2 September 2017
Time: Unknown
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: A Flat/Restaurant, Norwich - Night
I was with DL in a flat, which in the dream was above his real life flat. However, it was much bigger than would be possible for the real life size of the building. The flat was also a restaurant and was owned by a female dream character, who was a tall, slim white female with a black straight bobbed haircut (jaw-length) and dark eyeliner and lipstick. I knew that DL was attracted to her. On the TV in the flat, I could see that a video was playing. It was footage filmed by an amateur and featured the female dream character, who in her spare time was a 'Female Darth Vader Impersonator'. The video showed her dressed up as Darth Vader, but I did not hear the audio or know the context of the video. 

DL and I walked around the corner, where there was one table, with food laid out on it. The food was from the restaurant run by the female. There was a large cake stand (the multi-tiered ones you see high tea served on), with had hundreds of white bread rolls, with ham in them. DL informed me that the restaurant (it wasn't really a restaurant, but rather a flat that had a dinner table where you could eat food prepared by the female) was famous for giving you unlimited ham rolls with each meal ordered. I thought this was excellent value - as you could eat as many ham rolls as you wanted for free, no matter what you ordered. DL told me that the restaurant usually served Italian food. 

The female and I left the flat, while DL went down to his own flat. He was going to meet up a short while later after he had finished doing what he needed to do in his own flat. I noticed at this point, that instead of being located where DL's flat is in real life, it was in some kind of courtyard, with buildings forming a quadrangle. 

Scene 2: Common Lane, Sheringham - Night
The female and I walked off and instead of being in Norwich, we were suddenly standing on Common Lane, Sheringham, which is the road which leads up to my Nan's house. We were standing outside a tall building, which the female told me was DL's house (instead of being a house, it was a block of flats). She said we were to meet him outside his house, and he was inside with the woman that lived above him - who he was in a relationship with. I did not question the fact that in the previous dream scene we had left the building DL apparently lived in, and the 'female resident' who lived above him had been the woman with whom I was not standing, not someone else. We were waiting for ages, just talking. 

I then received a phone call from DL. I asked him why he had not come out of his building. He said that he had, and that he was looking for us. I then realised that we had been at his house before (when in the female's flat/restaurant) and that the female had led me to Sheringham by mistake. I said to her: 'DL lives in your building, we didn't need to come here!' She laughed at her mistake and we walked back to the building she lived in, which was DL's home. 

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Food

Dreamsigns: 
  • The flat/restaurant with the Female Darth Vader impersonator
  • DL's house was in a random courtyard
  • We walked from DL's flat (Norwich) to Common Lane, Sheringham in a matter of minutes, but in real life, this is a 25 mile (or more) distance
  • The dream logic was completely distorted - the Female Darth Vader impersonator forgot DL lived in the same building as her, and while she was the resident in the flat above him, she later seemed to suggest that there was a different woman living above DL, with whom he was in a relationship, although in the dream I put this down to the fact she had been confused about the locations

Day Residue: 
  • I had been watching an edited video of Darth Vader in various scenes from Star Wars which had been overdubbed with Gordon Ramsey's funniest meltdowns or insults from Hell's Kitchen or Kitchen Nightmares
  • I had been chatting to a guy online and he asked me if I liked to do Star Wars cosplay. He was trying to get me to talk about cosplay in a flirty. sexual way and got annoyed with me when I said I did not want to have a sexual conversation with him 
  • DL and I had been discussing gender-bending of fictional characters in popular culture shortly before this dream
  • DL has Italian heritage
  • DL had recently complained to me about the woman who lived above him, who makes a lot of banging and also orders takeaways late at night, often resulting in the delivery person ringing DL's doorbell and annoying him. He hates this woman, so he found it funny that in the dream he was in a relationship with a woman who lived above him

Waking Reactions: 
I found this dream really confusing while I was dreaming it, but reflecting on it, it was actually a very enjoyable and funny dream. 


Dream 873
'Incompetent Star Wars Remake, featuring 'Binmanwoman''
Date: 4 September 2017
Time: 05:00 - 12:00 
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: Sheringham Market - Day
I was in Sheringham market (this happens on a Saturday), which looked as it used to when I visited it each weekend as a child/teenager, except it was slightly larger and had some interesting clothes stalls with fashion items which would unlikely to be in the actual real life market, and more suitable to somewhere like Camden or Wembley Market (both of which I regularly visited when I lived in London).

 I was with a huge group of dream characters and we were involved in a remake of all the Star Wars movies - the dream characters I was with were the cast and crew. We were remaking the movies in chronological order, starting with Star Wars: Episode I - The Phantom Menace (1999). Sheringham market was supposed to be Tatooine. I wanted to play Padme Amidala, but instead, I was cast as a character called 'Binmanwoman' which I was not happy about. The filming seemed disorganised and chaotic - no-one seemed to know what they were doing, and everyone was just standing around debating how to best start this project. I got bored and wandered over to a market stall which sold pens. I wanted to buy some green biros, and I asked the man who ran the stall if he had a scrap of paper for me to test them out. He was moody and rude, and handed me some paper, which I scribbled on to test the green pens out. I decided to buy them, and then returned to the Star Wars cast and crew to continue filming.

Scene 2: The Crown Public House, Sheringham
The next scene where we were filming the new Star Wars remake was The Crown pub in Sheringham. I noticed that some locals - who I knew from when I lived in Sheringham - were in the pub, sitting in the part of the room where the fruit machine and dartboard is, just to the side of the entrance/bar. CSS and TC were present, as well as a couple of other locals. They were all having fun, laughing and drinking pints of beer. We were waiting to film a scene where the child Anakin Skywalker is first introduced into the story, as a child slave. However, the actor playing (adult/Sith Lord) Darth Vader came in, prematurely. He looked very threatening, but instead of having the black Darth Vader costume, he just looked like a very tall man - resembling a much larger and younger Will Self, wearing normal clothes of the type you might expect Will Self to wear (a tweed jacket and shirt). He also spoke with Will Self's voice, so in the dream I perceived this actor to actually be 'Will Self'. The only thing odd about his appearance was that his lower jaw was robotic and made of plastic/metal (white) and was protruding, having been bolted on with big brown bolts at either side, which made him look terrifying (his actual jaw had fallen off during his 'days as a football thug' - in the dream I was aware of his history and the fact that he had undergone reconstructive surgery to replace his lost lower jaw with a cybernetic/robotic one, which I guess is pretty fitting for someone playing Darth Vader!). Darth Vader was not supposed to even be in this movie (given it we were staying fairly loyal to the premise of The Phantom Menace and therefore, Anakin was still only a small child). Everyone was so scared of the Darth Vader actor and his history as a football thug/hooligan that no-one dared to tell him that he was not required 'on set' until we filmed the end of the third movie (Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith (2005)). The Director of the movie came in from the beer garden at the back of the pub, with the child playing Anakin (looking very much identical to Jake Lloyd, the real actor who played child Anakin), on his shoulders. The Director looked a lot like George Lucas, but he was a 'local' (so not actually George Lucas in the dream) and he wore a Safari Suit as he was doubling up as Qui-Gon Jinn (for some reason the Jedis were all wearing weird outfits that did not resemble the correct costumes from Star Wars). He stood with 'Anakin' beside the cigarette machine/men's toilets (so just a short distance from where I was standing with Will Self/Darth Vader) and said words to the effect of: 'I'll re-write it so Anakin is a child and an adult at the same time'. Basically he meant he would edit the script to incorporate the Vader character as he was too scared to tell Will Self/Vader he wasn't needed on set for filming yet. I thought the Director was a pussy. The child Anakin looked like he had been crying as his face was very red. 

The  Will Self/Darth Vader very impatiently ordered a drink at the bar and started showing off, boasting about his expensive designer watches and showing off the really flashy and fancy one he was wearing for the Darth Vader role. Everyone was being super polite to him, to keep him in a good mood and admiring/complimenting his watch, which was making him act more smug and annoying. I thought he was rude, arrogant and aloof. I was standing beside him. The drink he ordered was some form of cocktail (brown, in a short, squat glass) and I offered to pay for it, to do my bit to keep him in a good mood. He said: 'I'm very rich from being Darth Vader' and paid for the drink himself, with a banknote which he waved in my face in an aggressive way.

A waiter then approached and put some plates down on the bar which he had cleared from some tables of diners. The leftover food on the plates were huge piles of boiled cauliflower - bigger portions than you would serve for a huge banquet, let alone a single serving. I was surprised that food was being served while we were using the pub to film our Star Wars remakes. I wandered into the kitchen where I saw 2 male chefs, in chef's uniforms. One of the chefs was Indian heritage, the other was white. Both seemed to be older than me. I was aware that both chefs were also playing Jedis in the film. I thought this was bad casting as neither of them looked like Jedis and they both seemed to have bad attitudes.

The Indian chef said sarcastically to the other: 'Oh, it's Binmanwoman'. I felt both famous and annoyed at my character name. The kitchen looked like a dark concrete basement. There were more huge plates piled high with cauliflower, awaiting a waiter taking them for service. One of the chefs angrily pushed a metal bell to summons a waiter to take the food. Then both chefs stripped naked and then started wrestling on the floor in a 'blood orgy' (they were covered in blood, almost immediately - I did not see how this happened). It did not seem as if the blood was from physical injury to either chef, but was just a 'prop' to help them have more fun wrestling. 

I walked back into the main bar and rejoined Darth Vader and other members of cast, crew and locals drinking in the pub. A man in a grey suit with a clipboard then entered the pub. He was in his 40s/50s and looked very official - and also not happy with what he saw. He informed all of us that this pub was actually the 'Eastenders set' and it was unlawful to serve food while there was a blood orgy between the chefs. I was aware he was an Environmental Health Inspector and had the power to do these actions. He ordered us to stop filming Star Wars in this pub and said that he would be shutting down the kitchen for hygiene reasons. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Sheringham as a dream scene location
  • Star Wars and the character of Darth Vader
  • Food

Dreamsigns: 
  • The entire premise and narrative of this dream was a huge dreamsign!

Day Residue: 
  • I always think of R2D2 as a 'bin' based on something sarcastic said by Karl Pilkington to Warwick Davis while they were making An Idiot Abroad Series 3 - The Long Way Round. Warwick had kept mentioning how he starred in Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi (1983) as 'Wicket' the Ewok. Karl is moaning, saying that you can't even tell that it's Warwick in the Ewok costume and then makes a reference to what sounds like '321 in the Bin'
  • I had watched a space documentary on the day of this dream, which showed a recent discovery of a planet which orbits around 2 suns - like Tatooine 
  • I had been watching true crime documentaries on the day of this dream and in one, the mother of a murder victim referred to a 'lady policeman' which made me laugh, despite the tragic circumstances of what she was talking about
  • I had been thinking about buying some new pens as I noticed that the ones I have been using seem to be running out of ink
  • I saw my Stepdad post a reference to The Crown on Facebook a couple of days before this dream
  • A few days before this dream I had been telling DL about a documentary I watched about the 'Radium Girls' - female factory workers in America at the start of the 20th century, who suffered radiation poisoning after employers at United States Radium Corporation failed to warn them of the dangers of working with radium and actually instructed them to lick the paintbrushes they used to paint watch dials, to keep the tips precise and pointed. As a result of constantly ingesting radium and also painting their faces with the luminous radium paint for fun, many of the woman developed necrosis of the jaw ('known as 'radium jaw' or 'phossy jaw') and litigation was initiated against US Radium Corp, who denied responsibility, even though it was alleged that many of the more senior workers were aware of the danger of radiation exposure
  • I had been watching a documentary about the 'road rage murderer' Tracie Andrews, who has been in the media recently as a result of her marriage to a man she met while working as a server in a pub (after her release from the life sentence she served following the murder of her partner, Lee Harvey in 1996). The article about Andrews' life post-release referred to an operation she had to correct her jaw - her lower jaw protruded too far. I coincidentally watched another true crime documentary about a child who was murdered and found in the wood. His body was dismembered and decapitated and his lower jaw (described as a lower mandible) had been removed and never found
  • I vaguely recall hearing/seeing a reference to expensive watches somewhere (probably online) shortly before this dream
  • I had seen someone tag CSS on Facebook a day or so before this dream - I do not have CSS on my Facebook, so this was the first time he had come to my attention in years. I think the person who tagged him was TC - which would explain his presence in this dream as well. I  certainly recall seeing TC post something on Facebook around this time, as I recall thinking about what he was like when he was younger and we were good friends
  • I had been watching some true crime documentaries about Satanic cults, which contained references to 'blood orgies'
  • I had been watching Celebrity Masterchef - one of the older series I had been re-watching had a number of Eastenders actors as contestants

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was absolutely amazing and so vivid. I enjoyed it so much, and took a lot of pleasure remembering it when I woke up. The narrative involved so many aspects of Day Residue, interwoven in a fascinating and humorous way. 


Dream 874
'I Love You'
Date: 7 September 2017
Time: 06:30 - 12:00 
Type of dream: Vivid Dream
Dream recall: Strong Recall 

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham
I was in my Nan's house in Sheringham, although in the dream this house looked to be much larger and was actually the home of my love interest, who I will refer to as 'RDTA', and a very long distance away from where I lived. My bedroom in my Nan's house looked pretty much the same as it does in real life, and this was where RDTA and I were in the dream. The second bed (which used to be in this room when I shared it with my Mum as a child) was there once again and there were a number of items which I was looking at. RDTA was dressed in a white hoody and grey tracksuit bottoms.

I had been invited to RDTA's house to spend time with him, and in the dream I found this to be odd as I did not think that he would want me to know where he lived. I just wanted to be sexually intimate with him, but RDTA was not initiating anything and I was too nervous to initiate physical contact myself. Even though I had been invited, RDTA did not seem to be interested in my company at all and he had invited a number of  his male friends round, who were in another room, rowdy and making a considerable amount of noise. I kept asking RDTA if he wanted me around and he sort of indicated that he wanted me to leave and regretted inviting me to his house (as I now knew where he lived). In the dream I was actually surprised that he had trusted me with his address. RDTA was messing around with his phone (texting or checking messages) and I was anxious in case he had a girlfriend. I was really jealous and I just wanted to communicate my feelings to him. I took a blue biro and wrote in large capital letters on the second bed (which actually seemed to be made of wood) 'I LOVE YOU'. Then I regretted it and while RDTA was still looking at his phone, I tried to wipe it off with a cloth I found on the bed. The writing was really difficult to wipe off - almost impossible, no matter how hard I rubbed at it. RDTA came over and looked at the writing. I was embarrassed and realised I did not want him to know I was in love with him after all as I could not stand the rejection. I tried to cover the writing (which was still largely intact) with my hand before he could read it, but it was obvious he had already seen what it said. I apologised for writing on 'his bed'. RDTA asked me when I was leaving, as he wanted to spend time with his male friends. I got the impression that he actually wanted to see another woman instead, which was why he was trying to get me to leave. I said I would leave now, but I then realised that I needed to take a number of connecting trains and the journey home would take me an entire day. As it was now 16:00 hours, I would not be able to get a connecting train; it was far too late. I asked if RDTA minded if I stayed the night and left early in the morning. At this point, he seemed to relent and relax and said that I was welcome to stay. He presented me with a bouquet of flowers and I felt really happy now, because he was warmer and friendlier than he had been earlier. 

We went downstairs and he explained that this was his parents' house and he lived here with them. The downstairs of the house was also my Nan's house - and looked pretty much the same as it does in real life. On the table was a woman's handbag and some other items. RDTA started picking up the items and wrapping them in some gift wrap. I wondered if these were presents for a girlfriend or someone he fancied, and again, I felt very jealous. One of the items was a crocheted white blanket. RDTA then explained that his sister had just given birth to a baby and these were presents for her and his niece/nephew (I cannot recall the gender of the baby). I was again relieved. 

There was other action in this dream which I cannot recall, even though I think I was able to remember more of this dream when I first woke up from it. If I recall anything else I will record it below.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Sheringham as a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 
  • My Nan's house was RDTA's house

Day Residue: 
  • I was talking to a guy (from my local area) on Tinder and he was pressurising me to give him my address as we share the same postcode. When I refused to give my address to him - basically he was a complete stranger and I had only been talking to him for a few minutes at that point - he got annoyed with me. I hate Tinder and am never tempted to date my matches when we start chatting as they are either rude or just not right for me. I have an idea of who my ideal man would be (the RDTA in this dream), but it seems like I will not ever be with this person in real life - hence the feelings of frustration and unrequited love in this dream, which symbolises and conveys my waking thoughts

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was quite negative for me as I felt undesirable to a man I saw as my ideal partner. I think this dream adequately sums up the state of my love life right now - non-existent. 

Wednesday, 23 August 2017

Dream 867

'The Funniest Dream'
Date: 22 August 2017
Time: 13:30 - 19:00
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: A Concrete Basement - Time Unknown
Despite the fact that this was a very vivid and long dream I really can't say much about it as there is not much detail I can describe. Although it seemed to continue for some time and had a lot of detail while I was actually in the dream, on recall it seems that a lot of it was pretty conceptual. 

The basement I was in had a red glow about it. Everything was textured concrete or rock. There was a small ledge running around the walls, halfway between the floor and the ceiling. At one point, there was a stone staircase leading down to where I was, on the ground. I was with another 'real' dream character (unrecalled) who I knew well in the dream. 

My friend and I were trying to organise something which may have been a game. It involved these male characters, who were either computer generated characters or puppets. They seemed to be autonomous (so able to move around and interact like normal humans) but completely under our control. They looked 3-dimensional, but at times, they were laying flat on the ground while we decided what to do with them. The most accurate description I can give is that it was like playing with 3-dimensional Sims, in the real world. They were about half the size of regular adults - so child-size, but clearly adults. I am not sure what our purpose was with these 'humanoid puppet sims'. At first we had 3 of them - they were all basic looking white males wearing normal clothing. I looked up and saw 2 more of these humanoid puppet sims - one of them had a large red scar running in a zigzag shape down across his eye and over his cheek. They were walking around the perimeter of the walls, on the ledge. The other one was pushing an empty baby's pram. We called/commanded these humanoids down and they obeyed us. We made all 5 of them lay on the floor of the basement. I understood that the 2 new ones would be now under our command and part of our plan too. I found everything hilarious - I was laughing so hard at the situation. I am not sure what I found so funny, but it felt so good to be laughing so hard. 

Now, looking around the basement, I could see that it was part library and part a kitchen/lounge, which looked like it was from a 1980s TV show (I cannot explain what I mean here, but it gave me this perception clearly in the dream). The red light which had surrounded everything was now a bright yellow. The humanoid puppet sims were doing something - interacting and walking around. It seemed as if there was some misfortune or bad luck about to strike them - I am not sure what, but I clearly sensed that they were about to have some trauma to deal with. Because they did not seem to be actually human, I was still finding all of this incredibly funny - I was laughing until I could barely stand up and I was unable to talk to my friend, who was ordering the humanoid puppet sims about, especially the one with the red zigzag facial scar and the one with the pram, who had joined us later. I realised that the humanoid puppet sims were actually made out of old socks - this made everything all the more funny to me.

I cannot say anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • None of note

Dreamsigns: 

  • The weird humanoid puppet sims and the strange purpose my friend and I had towards them

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
I woke up feeling so good - as if I had really been laughing as hard as I had in the dream. There was a sense of happiness, but also exhaustion - I did not feel rested in any way, but I did feel as if a lot of tension had been lifted from me in some way. During my waking day I was in a very silly mood and everything was making me laugh for no reason. Therefore I see this dream as a very positive experience, despite the fact that it was so weird and difficult for me to explain properly.

Dream 866

'Abusive Boss'
Date: 20 August 2017
Time: 03:45 - 12:30
Type of dream: Vivid dream
Dream recall: Strong recall 

Scene 1: Law Firm Office/Nightclub - Time Unknown
I was back working for a former boss in the law firm in which I used to be employed. I was aware that I had previously left this job because I had been unable to cope with working for the boss, IF, who was hugely problematic for a number of reasons I will not discuss here. I was sitting at my desk. There was another dream character with me - a short, petite young woman who may have been mixed-race. In the dream she was my friend and ally against IF. 

Suddenly, my friend, IF and I were in a nightclub. There was another woman present. In the dream my friend and I were aware that this woman was unattractive. My waking mind recalls her as being 'frumpy'. She had very short reddish-brown hair and large glasses. Her skin was very pale and she was tall and skinny and appeared to be in her 30s or 40s. IF was screaming: 'You fucking fat bitch!' at this woman over and over again while we were sat in the nightclub. He tried to encourage me and my friend to join in abusing this woman, and we were shocked by IF's behaviour. 

There was some lapse of time - I am not sure how long, but it seemed to be considerable. I am also not sure what the next dream location was. My friend and I then became aware that IF was dating the ugly woman and she had moved into his house. She would also be managing us in the workplace. My friend and I started to argue with IF, asking him why he was dating someone he did not respect or find attractive and why he would place this woman in charge of us. IF was laughing. He kept referring to his new girlfriend as 'the fat bitch' (she was not in any way fat - she was skinny, as mentioned before), but refusing to listen to us. The woman came over and started goading my friend and I. 

Scene 2: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Night
My friend (the same one from Scene 1) and I were in my Nan's house. I was standing at the top of the stairs, on the landing and my friend was halfway down. It was very dark - it was only just possible to see as there were no lights on. I was aware that my friend had a young daughter - of about 2 - 3 years of age, who was alone at her own house - I saw a mental image of the little girl standing up in her cot, crying for her mother. I asked my friend about it and she said that she had 'abandoned' her child and would be giving her up for adoption. I was pretty shocked about this - and asked her why she had left her child alone in her home. My friend said that she did not want her child anymore and IF had told her to do this. I felt anxious about the welfare of this child and the fact that my friend was making such as strange decision. My friend was trying to convince me to get ready to go to a nightclub.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Nan's house as a dream scene location
  • Something negative happening to a small child

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was still working for my former boss

Day Residue: 
  • I had been watching Gordon Ramsay on Ramsay's Kitchen Nightmares and Hell's Kitchen - screaming insults at people, including referring to women as 'bitches' and overweight people as 'fat'. I think in my mind I associated him with a former boss, IF
  • I had seen a post online about baby twins which had led to dozens of people commenting about whether the mother had left her babies unattended
  • I had read a number of recent online articles about abandoned babies
  • My PhD thesis is on children's rights and welfare

Waking Reactions: 
This dream felt really frustrating at the time and I disliked it. I woke up with a strong association between having been watching Gordon Ramsay on the internet and thoughts of my former boss.

Dream 865

'Jimmy Savile Victim'
Date: 19 August 2017
Time: 02:30 - 10:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: Cromer, Norfolk - Night
I was in the street in Cromer, near the Bus Station (the scene of a very recent rape of a teenage girl). It was night. I was with 2 male dream characters, who I knew in the dream, but who I cannot recall now - although one of them may have been DL, as in the dream I felt I was able to confide in him. I was aware that many years ago, when I was a child I had been sexually abused by paedophile Jimmy Savile - so I was the victim of historical sexual abuse. I felt so violated. I had only just disclosed this abuse to the police and there was going to be a trial (even though Savile is dead, and one of the notable things about him was that investigations into rumours and allegations had not led to prosecutions while he was alive, so he escaped justice, despite being the UK's most prolific sex offender). One of the dream characters I was with was telling me that I would have a hard job proving the abuse, as there was no evidence that it happened. However, I was aware that there was CCTV evidence which proved that it happened. I mentioned this to the dream character who I think was DL - he told me that the CCTV could be altered or edited in a way to undermine my case and I felt scared and worried in case he was right. The decorative lights which are a common sight in Cromer were very bright against the night sky. I started walking down the street, feeling desperate. I wished that I had not remembered the sexual abuse. I then had an image in front of me which was basically a screen, about to play the CCTV footage of my sexual abuse by Savile. It showed the same street in Cromer which I was currently standing in (I am not sure which street this was in real life). It was raining on the video footage. I wanted it to stop playing as I did not want to watch, and the CCTV did in fact stop playing. I was terrified in case I could not prove my case against Savile.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My local area (Cromer is less than 5 miles from my hometown in Sheringham, and I spent a lot of time there when I lived in North Norfolk)

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was a victim of Jimmy Savile's abuse
  • The CCTV evidence just seemed to start playing

Day Residue: 
  • On Friday 18 August 2017 there was a rape of a teenager at the Cromer Bus Station
  • Sheringham and Cromer went on 'lockdown' after some low-level disorder following some travellers moving into the area
  • I found out - subsequent to this dream - that there had been some controversy at the Cromer Carnival fancy dress competition as one of the winners had dressed up as convicted paedophile, Rolf Harris and had also included references to dead paedophile Jimmy Savile (he had an easel, which referred to touching kids and loving Savile) - this story made the national news
  • I had read 2 recent stories on the internet - one was about Harris being abused in the street (following his release from prison) and the other was about a former Jimmy Savile impersonator who had to quit his job after being abused in public (for making a career out of impersonating Britain's most notorious sex offender!)

Waking Reactions: 
This was a terrible dream as I am sure anyone reading this would agree. There was nothing positive about it whatsoever. 

Dream 864

'This is a National Front Pub'
Date: 15 August 2017
Time: 02:45 - 11:00
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: Location Unknown - Day
I was with TMP - a boy who I had a crush on in primary/high school who went on to become a boxer (I am not sure what he is doing now). In the dream I was surprised to see him, as in real life I have not seen him since we left high school. I was happy because TMP fancied me and we were getting on well. I think the dream started in a house, although I am not sure. 

At some point we were outside, beside a brick wall. It was a sunny day. My friend from university, AT was present. TMP punched AT, killing him instantly. Even though I knew this was 'murder' in the dream, AT was able to get up off the floor and appeared too still be alive. I was worried in case TMP would be arrested for the 'murder' of AT and that I would be implicated as an accessory as I had stood by and watched, without stopping TMP. I started speaking to AT, threatening him not to tell the police about TMP murdering him. I said that I had a chance of having sex with TMP and him getting arrested because AT 'snitched' would ruin my plans. I put so much pressure on AT that he agreed he would not report TMP to the police. This made me feel relieved and I told TMP. 

AT went into a traditional-looking pub, which was full of people from my local area and in particular, my hometown - especially people TMP and I had been at school with. I specifically recall seeing SH in the pub. While TMP and I stood at the bar, the dream characters (peers from high school) came over and started questioning us as to why we were there. They said that we were not welcome as this was a 'National Front Pub' (ie extreme right-wing, neo-fascist). TMP and I started arguing with the dream characters, telling them that we had followed AT inside and that we were here because everyone else we knew were drinking here. Confused as to why everyone we knew were in a fascist pub, we quickly left.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Dream characters who are people I went to primary school/high school with or who live in my hometown 

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was involved with TMP
  • I tried to convince my friend AT not to press charges against TMP for 'murdering' him, even though he was still alive
  • The National Front Pub

Day Residue: 

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was weird, as I prioritised a sexual encounter with a high school crush over my friendship with AT. Also the reference to the National Front was odd - I assume it is because I perceive my hometown to be a very right-wing, conservative area and this makes me feel alienated from it and the views of many people who I grew up around. 

Dream 863

'Angry Voicemail'
Date: 13 August 2017
Time: 00:30 - 10:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Night
I was in my Nan's house, Sheringham. DL was there, as was another (unrecalled) dream character, who I knew in the dream. I was sitting in the armchair beside the airing cupboard/kitchen door and DL was sitting on the sofa adjacent to me, next to the dream character who I think was male. DL was fiddling with an object and I was aware that he was supposed to travel somewhere. I assumed he had decided not to go, as it was now late at night and I did not think he would be able to travel to his destination. He then received a telephone call from an (unknown) male dream character who told DL that he could still travel to his destination that night if he left in 30 minutes time. I was surprised by this. DL then got up from the sofa and went into the kitchen. 

I was aware that a woman had been doing something negative to DL - I am not sure what it was, but she was defrauding him in some way. I knew who this woman was in the dream, but I forgot it. When I woke up, I had 'Lindsay Lohan' in mind, so I suppose the dream character was associated with her in some way. I decided to call this woman on the phone and warn her not to mess with my best friend. I reached her voicemail. I left an angry message, saying that she did not know who I was and I was not going to give her my name, but if she did not leave DL alone or did anything else bad towards him I would hunt her down and make her regret her actions.

I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Nan's house as a dream scene location

Dreamsigns: 

  • DL and I were in my Nan's house

Day Residue:
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was reassuring as it confirmed that my subconscious mind is just as prepared to defend my friends as my conscious mind is!

Dream 862

'Bad Rats in Metal Skulls'
Date: 12 August 2017
Time: 23:30 - 07:30
Type of dream: Normal dream
Dream recall: Normal recall 

Scene 1: My Nan's House, Sheringham - Day
I was in my Nan's house in Sheringham, sitting in the living-room, on the sofa, in the seat in front of the TV. My Mum was also present. Someone (unseen) was passing plates to me from the left - there was the perception that I was working in catering. I was looking at the plates and could see there was some kind of tomato sauce on them (ketchup). There was a problem with the 'order' and while sitting on the sofa, talking to my Mum, who was to my right side, I began scraping food from one plate to another, without the tomato ketchup. 

Scene 2: A Large Bedroom - Night
I was then in a large bedroom (not one from real life), which seemed to be also a children's playroom, as it was very messy with toys and other random possessions everywhere. There were huge piles of dirty laundry all over the room. On the windowsill was a small metal skull - about the size of an apple. I knew this was a container and that there was an 'evil rat' inside it. I did not want anyone to open the skull container and let the rat out or even see it - the idea of this happening terrified me. My Mum came into the room and starting looking through the piles of dirty laundry looking for a single cigarette (my Mum quit smoking nearly 20 years ago). She seemed desperate to find it, and I was unsure why as I knew she was not a smoker. The idea of the evil rat in the skull was still troubling me. My friend CEC entered the room. I cannot recall anything else about this dream.

Extra Information: 
None of note

Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • My Mum
  • Food

Dreamsigns: 

  • I was sitting in my Nan's house, which simultaneously 'working in catering'
  • The concept of the evil rat in the metal skull container
  • My Mum's actions

Day Residue: 
  • None of note

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was quite strange - but the aspect of it which I found to be the most unusual is the fact that the next day I had a craving for tomato ketchup and actually bought/ate some. I never ever feel compelled to buy tomato ketchup - I do not dislike it, but it's not something I would regularly eat as I prefer spicy sauces or mayonnaise. I really enjoyed it!

Tuesday, 22 August 2017

Dream 861 (FALSE AWAKENING/LUCID DREAM/SEX DREAM)

'Ewan McGregor, My Lucid Lover & Bad Teacher'
Date: 9 August 2017
Time: 22:30 - 05:00
Type of dream: Lucid False Awakening (Fully Lucid with Moderate Dream Control & Moderate Dream Stability)
Dream recall: Strong recall 

False Awakening - My Bedroom
I woke up in my bed, facing the wall, so my back was towards the empty space in the room. I could feel something poking me in my back and felt scared, but strangely accepted this - at this point I was not lucid nor aware this was a false awakening. I just seemed to think: 'Not this again!' Then, suddenly, it was as if my logical reasoning switched on, because I questioned what could be poking my back when I was alone in my house and did not ever sleep with anyone present in the room. I realised this must be a false awakening and I was in a dream state. I found that I did not have sleep paralysis and could move freely, so I sat up suddenly, wondering what I would see in my room. I reached out my hand, in the dark, seeing that my room did look as I would expect it to in real life, other than my duvet was white, not purple. I wished for a knife to come into my hand, so I could be protected (given most of my false awakenings lead to nightmarish happenings, even when I am lucid). A long kitchen knife appeared in my outstretched hand. 

I felt that there was something in the room, just behind the curtain - the window is above the pillows on my bed. I started shouting: 'Come out!' because I just wanted it to reveal itself as soon as possible so that the dream could move forward, as the tension and apprehension was unpleasant. Nothing happened. I decided to change the dream and make it more interesting, so I started shouting: 'Ewan!' hoping to bring Ewan McGregor into my dream.

Amazingly, after I shouted out Ewan's name a few times, I saw him standing against what, in real life, would be my fitted wardrobe, but in the dream version was a plain white wall. Ewan looked as he does while playing Mark Renton in Trainspotting (1996), so very young and skinny. He had his hands out on either side, like a crucifixion. He was wearing a navy T-shirt and jeans. I could see a strip of flesh where his T-shirt was riding up on his waist. He looked like he had been out in the rain, or very sweaty. This image of him was very clear to me, like I saw it on a photograph and looked at it for a long time. It was dark in my room, as it would be in real life, but it was just light enough to see colours. 

I laid back on my bed and opened my legs wide - I was naked (in real life I was wearing shorts and a cropped top). Ewan approached me and - without me seeing/waiting for him to undress, he was naked and we started having sex in the missionary position (click here and here for articles on Lucid Dream Sex; and here for an article on Wet Dreams). 

This was one of the best lucid dream experiences, as I love Ewan and the sex was mind-blowing, I could feel the build up to an orgasm (so, leading to a wet dream), but I lapsed from lucidity and went into a normal non-lucid dream before I could reach the climactic finale of the sex with Ewan. This was obviously disappointing to me when I woke up and thought about this subsequently. 

Scene 1: A School - Day
I was in a school - not one from real life. It seemed to be a high school. AKB - a girl I went to school with was present. There was a school dinner - with baked beans and potatoes and something else on the plate. We were sitting at desks - myself, AKB and other students who may or may not have been people I knew from real life. I was then aware that Ewan McGregor was my teacher. I was in love with him - and he was Ewan McGregor the actor, not just him as a regular teacher, so I felt overwhelmed to be in his class. I cannot recall what Ewan was wearing at this stage in the dream, but I do not think he was wearing the costume I saw him in later. There was an assignment and he was coming round to look at our exercise books to make sure we were doing the work correctly. He looked at the work of a male dream character and seemed to be impressed. The phrase 'common den' was on someone's work - and Ewan read this phrase out. In my waking mind, it may be 'come on then', but my perception was that it was 'common den' as I started thinking about a small room. 

When Ewan came to look at my work, I stood up from my desk. I then realised that the room was open-plan and had no walls - as I could see the corridor behind us. Ewan was not impressed with my work, and furthermore, he seemed annoyed at me and very aloof and rude. I realised that he was able to see - from my writing in the exercise book (which I could not specifically read - and was written in pencil) - that I was in love with him. This seemed to make him act more rudely towards me, and I got the idea that he was trying to exploit me in some way. 

I followed Ewan out into the corridor. He was not dressed as Lumiere and he started prancing down was looked like a typical school corridor, with lockers and classroom doors on one side, and windows down the other. Groups of students - mainly male - were praising Ewan as he pranced by. He seemed very smug and patronising and everyone seemed to be in thrall of his celebrity status and were telling him what a great teacher he was. I did not think he was a great teacher at all - I thought he was too over-confident and arrogant and did not care for his students at all. I kept trying to stop Ewan so that I could have a rational discussion with him about why his teaching was bad and why I felt angry at his behaviour towards me, but he just kept indicating that we should walk (well, he was prancing, I was walking backwards at one point, facing him, while trying to get his attention) so that we could reach whatever location we were heading towards. This part of the dream was very frustrating. 

Scene 2: A Suburban Area - Dusk
I was aware that I was in a relationship with PS, my ex-boyfriend, who I had had some form of argument with. I was outside a house on a housing estate, which is not one I know from real life. In the dream, PS lived in a semi-detached brick house, which was in a typical suburban street with cars parked on the side of the road. PS was accusing me of having an affair with his friend, LRB, who in the dream had snitched on PS for some criminal activity - maybe it was possession of cannabis? It wasn't clear. I was telling PS that I had not cheated on him with LRB, but he was not willing to listen. LRB turned up in a car - in the dream he had ginger-brown hair, not black hair. He tried to reason with PS, telling him that he had not snitched and I had not cheated, but PS would not listen. The next thing I recall, I was in a public toilet with LRB. It turned out that now we were romantically or sexually involved with each other - we were looking at something in a bag on the floor of the toilet. 

I was then at the seaside with PS, standing on a pier. I was trying to explain events to him and make up with him, as it was him I wanted to be with. However, he was not interested. I tried to hug him and was rejected, which left me feeling very sad. 

Scene 3: A Home - Day
I was then looking at a male dream character, who in the dream was a Youtuber. I am not sure if I was there in person or watching him on a screen, as I was not part of the action, I was a passive observer. The male was young (20s or early 30s) and white, with brown hair. He was quite thin and dressed very casually - I knew he was 'working-class'. He was sitting in an armchair in a normal lounge, slouched and drinking  a can of lager. He seemed to be very annoyed and was talking - as if recording a video for Youtube, as it was a ranting monologue, not a conversation. He described going into 'the city' and buying some very cheap jeans - a fact which he was pleased about at first. Then he started talking about a baby daughter who had been treated negligently by a doctor with 'dirty hands' which had led to something going wrong. It wasn't clear what it was. 

Then my attention was drawn to a TV screen, which was playing an episode of a chat show or a morning TV show, which was revealing the incident which happened to the Youtuber's daughter - it was the episode where the the child had been treated by the doctor. I just watched this.

The TV show had a normal set - with sofas. There was a male TV doctor - a white middle-aged man, who was wearing a suit. There was a young blonde woman, who was the partner of the Youtuber, and the mother of his child. The child was about 2 years old - maybe younger. She had blonde hair too - but baby hair, thin and wispy. The mother was holding a bottle of water. The doctor picked up the child and held her, with her back to the camera. He asked the mother to pour the water over the child's head, which she did, wetting her hair. This revealed a huge golf-ball sized lump on the back of the child's head. The doctor started talking about this medical condition in a very worried way. 

Scene 4: The Forest Area near my Home, Norwich - Day
I was walking down the footpath which is between a field with horses and the forest. I was walking towards my home. In the footpath, there was a line of dead horses - they were in the field adjacent, but there heads were sticking through the fence into the footpath. I saw the owner of the horses, who in the dream I perceived to be 'the farmer'. I blamed him for the death of his horses. He seemed to be poking at their heads with some kind of garden tool. I was angry with him. I saw a small animal - it was a 'donkey' in the dream, but it was actually a donkey's head with a lamb's body. It was the size of a kitten. I really wanted this animal as it was so cute. I picked it up and started walking over the heads of the dead horses, towards the farmer, wondering if he would try and stop me from taking the miniature donkey-lamb (as I assumed it belonged to him). I thought that if he tried to stop me, I would object on the basis that he had killed his own horses and was not good at caring for animals. I reached the farmer, at the bottom of the footpath. He did not try and take the donkey-lamb from me, but we did have a conversation, which was not friendly and involved me accusing him of killing the horses and him making excuses for it. I looked beyond him, towards the grassy field on my university campus (from the position I was in I would not quite be able to see this part of the campus at this location/angle). I could see a bunch of sheep and a huge animal which was the size of a brontosaurus and appeared to be a cross between a sheep and a giraffe, but was covered in pale grey fluffy fur. I asked the farmer how he would 'shear the sheep' and wondered if he would shave the wool from the miniature donkey-lamb (which I did not want him to do). The donkey-lamb had weird teeth - they were large, square and very blunt, all in a perfectly aligned row. Even though the teeth were completely blunt, I was scared of the animal biting me. I decided to put the donkey-lamb in my handbag as I walked over to some stables. These stables were were the Broads/lake would be on campus in real life. They were made of red brick, and had hay/straw on the floor. There was an open space to enter (no doors), with a number of concrete steps up to the entrance. The animals - full-sized sheep and donkeys - were in pens which had hip-high wooden fencing keeping them in. I was wondering if I should leave the donkey-lamb here. It then jumped out of my bag and stopped on the steps at the entrance. I thought I had lost it for good, but I was able to approach it and catch it again. I put it back in my bag, worried that it would bite me. This was a constant worry. I then remembered that I had prawn sandwiches in my handbag and thought that the donkey-lamb might pee on them and ruin them. I wanted to take the prawn sandwiches out of the bag, but I was scared in case the donkey-lamb bit me. Eventually, I worked up the courage to put my hand in my bag and found that the donkey-lamb had eaten the prawn sandwiches and there was just empty cardboard packaging left in my bag. I was not angry about the sandwiches being eaten, but I was surprised that the donkey-lamb had eaten them. I walked off. 

I cannot recall anything else about this dream. 

Extra Information: 
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Recurrent Dream Themes: 

  • Ewan McGregor as a dream character
  • School/learning institution
  • Prawns

Dreamsigns: 

  • The Lucid False Awakening
  • I was back at school - Ewan McGregor was my teacher
  • I was in a relationship with my ex-boyfriend and had cheated on him with his friend, LRB 
  • The Youtuber who appeared on a TV show - the way this part of the dream took place, it was clearly an event which could only happen in a dream
  • The dead horses
  • The donkey-lamb and the gigantic sheep-giraffe
  • The stables which were on my university campus, wear the Broads/lake should be
  • I had eaten prawns a few days before this dream

Day Residue: 
  • Ewan McGregor is someone I think about everyday. The influences on this dream were from images/movies he has appeared in, which I would have been exposed to in my waking day - Mark Renton in Trainspotting (1996); Lumiere in Beauty and the Beast (2017); Obi-Wan Kenobi in the Star Wars prequel trilogy. In a conversation with DL I had mentioned that Ewan had done more theatrical roles as well and we discussed his acting career. The Christ-like pose I saw him in may have reflected the fact that one of my favourite internet memes (see below) is based on the fact so many people mistake him as a depicted of Jesus when he is dressed as Obi-Wan Kenobi. He has actually played Jesus in a movie I have never watched - Last Days in the Dessert (2015). I think the reference to him being a bad teacher was a post I read online about Obi-Wan being a terrible Jedi Master for his padawan, Anakin Skywalker. I discussed this theory with DL also
  • AKB works in the theatre industry
  • I had been discussing Jeremy Kyle and The Jeremy Kyle Show
  • I had been walking in the forest in the area in Scene 4 and seen the horses. During one conversation with DL I said: 'It would be weird to see one of the horses laying dead in the field'
  • I had been watching a Youtube video by Bunny Meyer (Grav3yardgirl) where she refers to her 'pony teeth' and tries out a pair of false teeth facades, which did not fit her mouth. I love the fact that Bunny embraces her own 'imperfect' teeth, as I have always been paranoid about my own

Waking Reactions: 
This dream was amazing - firstly because it was partly a lucid sex dream involving Ewan McGregor, and secondly because the non-lucid part was so bizarre and complex and involved many elements of Day Residue. I was disappointed with the events of Scene 1 (because Ewan was not a pleasant character) and Scene 2 (as it was not a positive scene in any way), but overall, I found the dream experience to be fascinating and entertaining to recall.